Dec 19th- Single again and my heart is pounding like death on a door.

So- it's finally official- I am no longer with the Ocelot. It's over finito, final. I am single. yes- single.
I only have one word to say..........Fuck.
How'd it come to this? I don't know. The lies? The pain, the constant battering of my skull....one word. Fuck.
Anyway besides that it's pointing more and more to the panda moving in. did some stretching thinking about going to watch a movie or somethin- idk really what to do with my brain. I do have to clean the catbox and restock the toiletries, some drone work will probably be best..